Tonight is our annual USKK Black Belt Test and I’m up for Nidan in Okinawan Karate.
Am I ready? Nope!
Am I surprised? Nope! As I’ve said before, I’ve rarely been 100% for ANY of my tests. It’s usually circumstances (workload mostly!) more than anything else. Sometimes nerves are a contributing factor but usually it’s physical issues and most often it’s exhaustion.
I know my material. I’m not worried about that. I’ve gone over it many, many times and it’s in my head. I may forget a thing or two like I did last time, but I’ll just keep going and kiah really loud. 😉
My challenge this time? I’ve been fighting exhaustion – mental and physical – for a couple of weeks and can’t seem to catch up with myself. And the last 2-3 days I’ve been fighting a slight stomach bug. It’s probably partly due to my exhaustion level, but the cause doesn’t really matter. The test is tonight, and I’ll be there.
Tonight is when I hope the Nidan candidates don’t have to stay on the floor the whole time with the Shodan candidates. 🙂 I’d rather not do all the basics up and down the floor, along with the random push-ups if someone forgets something or “just because.” You never know how it’s going to go, since it changes from test to test.
Whatever happens, I’ll be there. And I’ll be giving what Kyoshi always asks us to give. 100% of whatever I’ve got. It might be 100% of 80%, or 100% of 50%, but I’ll give it all! Maybe the energy drink before the test will give me a little more oomph? Let’s hope so!