I was almost in tears after tonight’s class. Not good. Really not good when I felt the same after last Thursday’s class.
I’m so frustrated. I feel like I haven’t learned anything in the past several weapons classes. Like I’m not making progress, or worse – going backwards. We’ve been doing weapons almost a year, and I cannot believe how slowly I’m learning! Maybe my brain has built a brick wall and it’s not going to let any more kata slip through. Who knows.
But if I’m not learning anything, what’s the point? Why bother to go to class? For all the learning I’m doing, I might as well stay at home and practice by myself. The results would be about the same, but maybe with less frustration.
I hate this feeling! I’m going to be grumpy and unpleasant a bit longer. I’ll wonder why I’m trying to learn karate, whether I should give up on weapons, whether I’d hate myself if I didn’t keep working at it. And I expect that, like after last Thursday’s Kenpo class, I’ll eventually realize I did something right or learned something tonight. And I’ll shut up, change my attitude, and get back to it for the next class.
The ups and downs of being a student. *sigh*
Renshi: I should get a certificate for training you for so long.
Me: Anyone who can train my high-maintenance self for 5 years deserves more than a certificate. You should get a medal or a trophy!
H: When we heard Sensei Michele was teaching tonight we said it would be a Yummy Class.
Me: Did you say Yummy Class? What’s a Yummy Class?
H: In yoga, when we have an easy class we say it is a Yummy Class. You have been a disappointment!
Me: I think I’m proud of that!
I needed to work out tonight but I wanted to watch the MMA fights. I waited too long to go to the gym beforehand, and didn’t want to go at 9 pm. So I put on my pretty pink shoes and went downstairs and jumped on my elliptical. (I have no excuse not to work out, do I? I have an elliptical, heavy bag & speed bag, hand weights, and a selection of workout DVDs to more than keep me busy!)
Anyway, while I was watching the fights and elliptical-ing away, I realized the fights are the perfect thing to watch while you’re doing HIIT training. There’s a clock in the corner of the screen during each round of the fight! Once you determine your interval times, you just keep an eye on the clock and start and stop as planned. Pretty cool, right?
I’m not saying that’s what I did, I’m just saying you could! 😉